Thursday, September 21, 2017

Ready for Rosalie

+JMJ+

Somehow this pregnancy has managed to pass in the blink of an eye - even though some parts of it felt slower than molasses.... It's hard to wrap my head around the fact that we discovered Rosalie's prenatal diagnosis about 18 weeks ago. 18 weeks! These past 4.5 months have been quite a journey and now we find ourselves preparing for an even greater adventure in just a few days - life with Rosalie Elisabeth!

36 weeks pregnant (okay, 1 day before, but close enough!)

We learned awhile ago that the severity of Rosalie's hydrocephalus meant I would need a planned C-section at 37 weeks (as soon as she is considered full-term/not premature) so that she can have a shunt placed in her brain as soon as possible. Way back when we first learned of her hydrocephalus diagnosis we also learned that there is nothing to do about it during pregnancy - besides monitoring the swelling, hoping, praying, and arming ourselves with all the possible knowledge through various consultations with specialists, of course. Beyond that, we simply had to wait.

Well, we've waited. And waited (and kept ourselves busy preparing for what we can as we've moved forward). And here we are in the homestretch!

Rosalie Elisabeth will be born bright and early Monday morning on September 25th. Assuming a safe delivery, the plans for her first 24 hours of life include: having an MRI, meeting her big brothers, getting baptized, and having brain surgery to place a shunt (which will begin alleviating all the extra pressure her brain has been experiencing from the build-up of cerebral spinal fluid). I'll join her in the intensive care nursery as soon as I can get out of recovery, but thankfully Michael will be by her side right from the start.

Honestly, I'm probably a lot more anxious about everything than I've let on (or even allowed myself to previously admit to myself) because this final week has brought on a whirlwind of sudden, unforeseen emotions and 9-months-pregnant tears...but there are so many things that have also brought me great peace and joy along the way. 

Number one, your prayers have helped. I don't like to admit that I have struggled to pray about all of this as much as I feel I should have been praying all along...but there are many times I felt too drained to pray myself. Just knowing so many of you have been holding us in prayer has truly carried me through. 

Secondly, we have had wonderful, compassionate support - from medical professionals, our family, friends, and the fantastic people we've met through the Be Not Afraid ministry. I've been blessed with friends to cry with, talk with, celebrate Rosalie's life with, and I cannot believe the incredible tangible gifts people have given us - through watching our kids during medical appointments and/or showering us with thoughtful notes or gifts for our baby girl.

The final thing that has brought me a lot of peace and immense joy has been preparing our new house for Rosalie's arrival. I nested hard, acquiring and installing curtains, artwork, frames, & shelves in ALL of the kids' bedrooms, among many other things. Most especially, though, designing and arranging beautiful (girly!) decorations for Rosalie's room gave my heart something happy, lovely, and productive to focus on during all those months of waiting to meet her and start getting some more answers about how she may be impacted by the hydrocephalus.

Now, simply standing in the nursery is cathartic for me as I look around and see tangible signs of our love, prayers, and joy that we get to finally hold her soon. Naturally, I am happy to share a few pictures of the finished product with all of you:




I was super excited to support a few Catholic artisans when choosing artwork for all the kids' bedrooms and could not be happier with everything I ordered! Rosalie's room features a floral heart with a custom quote from JustLovePrints (above left) and a floral watercolor of North Carolina from FawnlyPrints (above right).


Did y'all know that Raleigh, North Carolina is called the City of Oaks? That fun fact led me to find some beautiful artwork on Etsy, including a print (above far right) that features the quote, "Mighty oaks from little acorns grow." I still can't get over how perfect that is for our little hydrocephalus warrior's nursery!


Months ago we began asking everyone to pray for Rosalie through the intercession of St. Gianna, Our Lady of Guadalupe, and St. Gerard, so it was really important to me that I display their pictures somewhere (see the little frames above). The bird print seen here is from yet another Catholic Etsy shop, WhenBeautyMetTruth.


And finally...her ever-increasing collection of headbands and bows. ;) Even more touching is the fact that a friend hand-painted that canvas featuring Rosalie's name and a verse from 1 Samuel. It was such a thoughtful gift I received at Rosalie's baby shower this past weekend and it matches her room's decor beautifully!

At this point, we've done all the "big" things and are simply tying off a few, small loose ends (like packing a hospital bag, getting myself a haircut and mani/pedi, & meeting the priest that will baptize Rosalie when I go for confession and the anointing of the sick in anticipation of my C-section). But realistically, we are so ready to meet you, baby Rosalie. 

To all our family and friends: if you would like to receive Rosalie's medical updates please make sure to get the link to her Caring Bridge site within the next few days (or reach out to my mom or someone else for that info if you're reading this when I'll be in the hospital).

As always, thank you for your continued prayers!

"Just when you think you know love, something little comes along to remind you just how big it really is."
-Anonymous

6 comments:

  1. Stefanie, we are keeping you and your beautiful family in our prayers. I pray that you and Rosalie will have an easy recovery after your surgeries.

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  2. Lifting up lots of prayers and sending more love than we can express ❤️

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  3. I will be praying for you and your daughter all day today and tomorrow. I hope that you are able to feel everyone's prayers and feel comforted as you prepare for delivery.

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    1. Thank you very much! I certainly felt everyone's prayers!

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